[ Lost Memories ]

Description: My emotions and mental state has caused me to make this, please do not be concerned for my sake, either way, my state will worsen, getting that out of the way. Lost Memories is referencing, memories, specifically, lost memories, and this is referring to me. Memories good and bad have been lost to me, and even if they're still there, i don't wanna remember them, nor think about it. Memories of my father have since been fading away, as i'm having issues with him, how i feel disconnected with him, same with family, i've deemed my family unreliable to tell them my problems, and thinking of it causes more worry and nervousness, and then it all stops, just to come back again. My current thinkable emotions can change a-lot, i call this emotional masking, or basically, your problems are still there, but you don't think about them because you aren't thinking or feeling it, yet they come back, and put you in a bad state. Also, i've found out i'm unable to keep a relationship, due to my own stupidity and emotion, its sad real sad, but more sad is being disconnected from a-lot of things, more importantly, the people i deemed friends or trust, sooner or later, i become disconnected from them as well, soon just being some random person, i'm hopeless. And if you read through all of this, thank you for spending your time to read about someone else problems you either don't or do care about.