Venting in desc. No other outlet for it.

Description: Okay this is a stupid thing to vent about because I know I'm overreacting but goddammit why can't I just do what I'm asked? It's not like it's that hard. I keep getting told over and over that doing my homework is my only job but I still refuse to do it. What the hell am I gonna end up doing when I get an actual job if I can't do the one thing I'm required to do in life right now? And I know damn well I still have things I need to do but I'm deciding to vent on a pixel art website instead because I have no other outlet right now and holy jeebus do I need one. Like, it's so simple: Do the homework, don't lie about how much work is done, and no one's gonna have a problem. But I did the exact opposite and time and time again it's come back to bite me in the ass yet I still keep it up like what the hell is wrong with me? Why do I keep doing this? There's no reason. There is absolutely no reason, and no excuse. But I keep subjecting myself to this anyway and trying to justify it. Again, this shouldn't be so hard I don't know why I'm acting like it is. And again I know I'm overreacting, but so is my mom so am I entirely in the wrong? Yes, yes I am because I was the one started this stupid cycle in the first place. What the ever living hell is wrong with me?