If people only see me as a fucking "Manipulative Power hungry Pedophile Psycho." Then why should I even bother keeping up the more normal act anymore?! WHY DON'T I JUST ACT THE WAY THESE FUCKS SEE ME AS HUH?! HOW ABOUT THAT!? CAUSE WHY NOT?!? IT'S NOT LIKE ME TRYING TO DO BETTER WILL MAKE ANYSORT OF A GOD DAMN DIFFERENCE. NOT LIKE BEING SORRY AND REALLY REGRETFUL WILL MATTER TO THEM! NOT IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST THAT'S JUST GUILT TRIPPING!