why do i feel like i'm in that ungodly middle ground between a normal person and a neurodivergent. like i'm in the deadest fucking center possible between those 2 and i am itching to completely go to one side but it's like that one metronome going extremely fast but amplified and powered 15 times so i'm just glitching between Average Joe and Not-So-Average Reimer and if that happens for long enough it's gonna form a super fucked up supernova and i have zero idea what will happen then