i suppose i still get caught up in those thoughts today. ive been building myself back up with better positive affirmations, with someone alongside me that i trust. but, past mistakes will always be that thing that remains by my side as something to be weary of. ive done alot of reactive type of thinking, or acting in a reactionary way to be a pleaser, since that was what i learned and was taught. basically, cause no issues to those around you, no matter how you may feel.