one of my all time favorite songs "Cry of Achilles" has these lyrics "Crying out for more than i've been shown, knowing none of it is real" and "all that riddles me will never cease to be, still i search the world in vain" and i think that really relate to me and my struggle with this mindset

Description: Lefty (Bloob) 1. The Last Hero (Alter Bridge) 2. Deathwish (Red Sun Rising) 3. Atlas Falls (Shinedown) 4. Tested and Able (Alter Bridge) 5. BRILLIANT (Shinedown) 6. Cry of Achilles (Alter Bridge) 7. B.O.B/Bombs Over Baghdad (Outkast) 8. White Knuckles (Alter Bridge) 9. A Dying Machine (Tremonti) 10. Pawns & Kings (Alter Bridge)