ok but like it happens every time i don't speak (because i'm the kind of autistic that is selectively mute around basically everyone). and i mena like speka in general. like i'll just not have the words for anything and my fucking parent will go "or you don't speak English??" no. no i'm just autistic as fuck and can't think of anything to say if it has to come out of my own mouth with nothing to read off of.