and there's my mother. she means well but none of that goodwill has translated over into actual good and a lot of it actually hurt me rather than helped me. she always does this thing where she convinces me to like, take care of myself, and then tried to motivate me with hypotheticals of people thinking about me as a homeless creature as if everyone would act like i had a giant spotlight and 7 "interact with me" signs that have metaphysical aura