Every attempt to try and better myself I just get into a even worse place... I can't even find proper help as even some therapist fucking treat me poorly!... And one that I thought was going to be help... Was that damned pedophile... and really... How could I be a pedo if I despite the one that manipulated me and still does to others, and WANT to bring them to proper justice?... Or... Used too at first..... Just... Like any of it matters...