BMO I don't know anymore. My own MOTHER is telling me one thing, but then my g-ma is telling another. BOTH are something against one another. I don't know who to fucking believe. I want to believe my mom, but the trauma tells me not to. my nana is trustworthy, but she has done so fucking much to go against that. I am left confused. so damn dconfused. I just want it to end. I want the fucking pain of not knowing to fucking end.