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fd40c8 ...I always used "him" as an example of what not to be. After having to deal with someone I cared about be taken away, you'd think i'd try and avoid making the same mistakes "he" did, right? that'd be the reasonable thing to do.

eb2c20 You've been nice to me, Ateo... we've only really had one conflict, and it was a REALLY long time ago... plus you make good art and have just been a good friend to me...

fd40c8 Looking back at the things I've done in the past, its a wonder why anyone on this platform even bothers to be kind to me.

eb2c20 Weh...

fd40c8 Unintentionally, By mistake, Indirectly. Blah blah blah exuses. I've hurt people and I really dont seem to acknowledge that enough. im baffled how you manage to still look up to me Luna.. if you're still listening

fd40c8 I've hurt people

fd40c8 I've been hurt, scarred my my own personal trauma. yet somehow I manage to make the same mistakes "he" did, the only difference being motivation and intention, but thats besides the point.

fd40c8 In my case... Im not sure. Im convinced that im a horrible person for making mistakes, repeatedly. Am I not learning? I can make a thousand exuses for my actions, some reasonable, some not, but nothing justifies how these mistakes of mine continue to happen

fd40c8 ...That is a human assumption based on simular events continuing to transpire, usually due to those who strive for power never learning from their mistakes.

eb2c20 Hey Ateo...

fd40c8 They say history repeats itself, that the same mistakes will continue to happen over and over again.

99a418 the very fact that i am unable to quell my anger towards these creatures in of itself possibly surpasses all the hate generated by every form of discrimination combined.

99a418 the only thing worse than 9/11 is when you see somebody with an ayanokoji pfp say some dumb shit on the internet. i cannot stress enough how much i hate niggas with ayanokoji as their pfp. take for example AM from the book I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream. if AM's hatred for humanity were equivalent to the planck length, my hatred for ayanokoji pfps would be the size of the entire observable universe, if possible, the entirety of space and non-space. hate. i hate. i hate.

a90dd0 Struggling with motivation is common. You arent alone in your endeavours plant. I find acting quickly to be of use, pushing yourself to do it immediately rather keep the idea waiting until you lose interest.

7df290 Many ideas or requests to draw yet not wanting to fulfill it.

a90dd0 How so

7df290 Ever heard of "The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak?" Yeah, that's basically me in regards to art.

a90dd0 And, ah, your creative process?

a90dd0 Ok. I do hope you stay safe.

7df290 18th-20th and it lasts until the end of June if I recall.

a90dd0 Even so, ill pray for you and your companies safety until you get back. When will that be?

7df290 Pretty much, but it's mainly just to be there to establish presence rather than go fucking, y'know, fight.

a90dd0 Oh wow. I assume its for the Ukrainian conflict?

7df290 Going on rotation in literally like a couple of days.

a90dd0 Norway?

7df290 I guess you're right, and I hope so too.

3f0a4f Well if she has sent messages first, for many instances, id say its safe to say she isnt purposfully ignorinng you plant. Shes busy, too busy, and we know her mind works differently. She doesnt have the time, so she cant talk. Im only saying this with the reassurance that she isnt purposfully ignoring and does, in fact, love you.

7df290 For the most part it's usually me trying to talk with her, sending her a message first. There has been instances of where she starts a conversation first. Granted, I also usually start talking with her just to primarily tell her that I love her.

3f0a4f I think because of her ambiguity, like you mentioned, it really is hard to tell. But there are ways to know. One being her actions towards you. Does she tend to, yknow, speak first? Send more messages than you do? Or is it as of shes merely responding?

3f0a4f I see. You want to know what I think plant?

7df290 She's really just.. offline. I think she really is focused with stuff irl but I have yet to know truly. Or if she just doesn't like being online.

7df290 Considering how Sophie speaks and usually acts, it's hard to tell what emotion or feelings she's expressing unless it's something that's "out of character" for her, y'know? So most of the time I don't know that if she really reciprocates the same feelings or just doesn't care. I think that she loves me, and I believe that she cares. I just don't know.

3f0a4f Ill be real with you, no sugar coating or false hope, because that isnt what you want. Do you think shes losing interest? Has she shown any signs of so besides, well, not coming online for a while? Or does she seem content with you? Or is that not what youre worried about at all?

7df290 Yeahg

3f0a4f With Sophie, is it because she hasnt come online in a while?

7df290 Sophie, Finland and overall just my creative process.

3f0a4f lets work it out. Whats up?

7df290 I'll be honest BMO, a lot. And I don't know how to act.

3f0a4f Whats wrong plant

7df290 Man

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