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9df770 its a very volatile effect that leads to bipolar esque type moods.

bce8e5 A year ago I was going through an extremely mentally taxxing and emotionally punishing situation and I was repressing my feelings on it simply because it felt like I couldn't do anything, it surmounted to what felt like impossible amounts of pain and turmoil, I was in anguish whenever left alone with my thoughts, my bed frame has visible bite marks from when i bit down on it some nights out of fury and delirium while trashing around and groaning, just because of thoughts. throughout the day I was so pressurized with this dread and overwhelming doom that I was unable to do any daily task, I didn't feel like going to school, I didn't feel like going to work, I didn't feel like doing anything fun, I didn't feel like talking with anyone, after a bit I started to not feel at all.

9df770 derealization is like watching the world play from inside your head like a tv screen. you have no real control over what you do besides watching yourself do it. its like your body moves on your own and you aren't thinking of anything.

fbdf37 Farming my aura that's farming the aura

e7125a Would people that play vrchat like 24/7 fall under derealization?

bce8e5 derealization is a response to trauma/stress where the brain shuts itself off from the real world, it's almost like the real world melts away and you're left mentally stationary in your own world to protect yourself. People expreience it in different ways, personally I don't know if I've ever experienced it, but I bet it feels very off.

e7125a It would have to be very light music though, i want the video to like, ‘feel quiet’ whatever that means

bce8e5 i think music could add to it for sure

e7125a Well there’s no “dialogue” it’s a 1 sided convo but yk

9df770 enlighten me

e7125a also question for u guys, or at least people that have seen my previous animation, should i add music to this new one? It has alot more dialogue and it more based around a central conversation rather than a whole tale, but idk what i could even use that would make sense…

bce8e5 he brought up how what it probably was was depersonalization, do you know what the difference between derealization and depersonalization is?

9df770 i just got back wth is going onnn

e7125a Noted, im not going to pry for info about that if you dont want me to but, that’s very interesting

bce8e5 talking with my therapist reminded me of a period in my life a year or so ago, i've been thinking about it alot

3c002f Why do you have the scars like that one guy from jjk, is this a fake bmo

3c002f Oh oksorry

fbdf37 🕙

3c002f Do we start theorizing kekw

bce8e5 i'm just doodling

bce8e5 https://youtu.be/9YE_YxJ7K7M?si=CMFq5l7_KKn_W_Qr

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6d450c Bmo if he was a key on a keyboard:

fbdf37 Bmo is in a box because he is cold🥹

6d450c Bloobs drop the victor redesign saar you’ve been on here for like 4 hours

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6d450c Are these shots from the anim bmo or just vaugeposting

fbdf37 No way blue radiation man

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236914 can one of you bully me into drawing victor please im procrastinating

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8defd6 anyway i'll wait for one of you to get back to me on my question, ima work on my anim for a bit

fbdf37 I lowkey have dementia and forget a lot of people 🥹

8defd6 actually drawing on the phone was how i adopted this artstyle where i use the sketch as an outline, cuz i cant draw consistent shapes that fast on there

8defd6 idk why i draw on my phone when i could on pc, i guess i just prefer laying in bed kekw

1fde81 i. may have figured

fbdf37 I too use ibis but it's ass when you try to fill something in

8defd6 nah i use asesprite or pixel studio on my phone

236914 take my mind off all this stress.

236914 i'm gonna draw victor now since i have nothing to say

8defd6 hmmmm i still need that second project to work on alongside the anim, do i make another sona? I was thinking of actually leaning into doing something unique the 2010s aestetics instead of just making pursuitcore fanart, i dont knowww.