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78722c it's a catharsis, that feeling of removing a weight from yourself. as for me, and how I feel. I've could say that I've become more accepting of reality. I am mortal, as are my loved ones, as is anything that exists around me. nothing is permanent and that's okay, I wont always be who I am right now, tomorrow I'll be different as I am different from who I was yesterday.

d3c520 (( *ⁱⁿᶜᵒᵐᵖʳᵉʰᵉⁿˢⁱᵇˡᵉ ⁿᵒⁱˢᵉˢ* ))

78722c oh, well. To be frank, there is nothing that I can find wrong with living for the people whom you love and in return love you, after all, everyone, and I truly do mean everyone, does the same thing to many, many different degrees. it is important to be able to live for yourself, and sometimes living for someone else is in actuality, living for yourself.

8c660b thats just how i feel though. what about you all? how are you?

8c660b i said i was gonna stop ranting here or whatever but to me it feels like i'm lifting weight off my shoulders... even if no one sees, if no one cares, it feels great to me. to let this sort of virtual void know who of what i really am; a nobody and many masks

8c660b ive seen who i am around my own, the people i live for... i like to think im a good man. to them, at least.

8c660b in reality i'm no cool guy. i'm no bad boy. i'm the physical embodiment of nobody, who's been wrapped in anguish and made to suffer... thats how i see myself, nothing. but im everything for the people who need me. i do not live for myself, i never truly have

78722c you feel like you put on different faces when in front of different groups? I understand that feeling. the best I could say is to examine who you are when alone, when with the people who make you happiest, and when around people whom love you, as I find that it's those moments that truly make you yourself. and don't lose yourself trying to find yourself, sometimes, it is better to accept.

8c660b i wonder if anybody sees past the pointless character i am/was online... i thought to be "cool" youd gotta be something of a delinquent, no idea why really. i wish i had just been me when i came back here. but then again, is there a me? or just fractured pieces of different someones masquerading as one?

78722c ah, I understand. well, you could always keep them in your thoughts if that may bring comfort.

8c660b im agnostic, dont pray- wish i could do something myself but everything i can wont end well either for me, them or all of us

78722c I don't know if you are or aren't religious, but it's obvious you care deeply for them, so if you're going to have to go your separate ways, you could always pray for them.

8c660b i should stop telling people i'm 6'4. i'm not even 6'2

8c660b this is all pointless rant. nothing will change, and soon i'll be gone from their lives forever.

ab5d41 Hey stick guy, you wanna give it a shot? (No star on the troso, and the ideas gonna be like, either NEO CATASTROPHE or ARMAGEDDON but BLUE)

8c660b "Ohhh but you cant hit girls why would you hit a girl???!!!" i'm progressive, all humans are equal and therefore equally eligible to catch these hands

8c660b how she even managed to get a man to have a child with her is beyond me, let alone two children- then again the guy sucks just as much as she does so really they were meant for each other. I was thinking about her daughters yesterday, shed some tears for them. Breaks me that i cant be a safeguard for them anymore.

ab5d41 YEAH no im not gonna be drawing the glitcher wings for a long while because of how this fuckass ipad works (i hate only having like 1/20th of the canvas to work with)

8c660b i wish i could (legally) punch someone, just one person. i know someone who i desperately wanna punch right in her stupid fat face. Yes, its a woman but she looks like a man so does "she" really count? also she's abusive so i dont think her gender matters, she deserves to be punched in the face.

d3c520 (( damn. ))

8c660b that being said i just stood in someone else's way. i am my own worst enemy.

2bb71f zamn zaniel.

8c660b i hate when people stand in my way. Its annoying and wastes my precious time on this earth waiting for you to move even though ive already said excuse me like 3 times. autistic people dont live long. i cant waste my short life waiting for you to move out of my fuckin' way.

d3c520 (( where the fuck did that line come from- ))

d3c520 (( "I am GOD" lookin' ass. (I was trying to draw something, ended with Sonic.EXE somehow) ))

9dea8a Appears (i still have yet to start working on the starglitcher part of this)

8c660b come next period i'll be getting some of those papers from my art teacher and giving it a shot to see if it makes if a difference. If not ill keep at this sketchbook but if it will like i think it will i might go out and find a nice binder and start using that instead

8c660b something i really hate is whenever i draw it never feels "worthy"of being in a sketchbook. like, why am i gonna put this in a sketchbook!??!?! this is literally why i quit drawing.

8c660b what i wanna do is get a binder or something and go back to regular paper and when im done safely place my works in the binder- they wont smudge since the papers i was using are high quality and are difficult to fuck up and solves my issue with how it looks/feels

8c660b it sucks because i have like 4 sketchbooks i havent touched because my motivation died when i picked this damned thing up. the drawings are fine, not masterpieces by any means but theyre simple satisfactory doodles however theyve begun to smudge and i know the whole page is gonna look like tv static soon i wish i could just learn how to draw with my right hand and never have to deal with the smudges but that still leaves the other things i have and havent mentioned

78722c accepted death, an endless reprieve from his unjust punishment.

3ba4e0 accepted what

8c660b i hate drawing in sketch books i dont like how it feels and then my hands smudge everything because im left handed in a world for right handed people and then it all smudges i cant erase it then it spreads everywhere and i kill myself because life isnt worth living anymore

78722c he gave up, he accepted it.

3ba4e0 so. what happened.

78722c no. you need not know at all.

d3c520 (( Y'know what, I won't question it. I don't need to know. ))

d3c520 (( ... ᵘʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰʰ... ))

78722c . . . . . it's quiet now . . . . . he finally accepted it. I'm fine, for now.

d3c520 (( gabe are you ok? ))

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