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8defd6 ok see u i need 2 get back 2 work too lowk

f421bf yeah its sort of like that

8defd6 what is d bro

f421bf i need to get off it's d bro the ego is crazy

f421bf in a way, i learned to be genuinely hostile. i literally dont give a shit most of the time now abt how everyone thinks of me, i know i aint doing anything wrong

8defd6 yeah i see what u mean

f421bf i mean as long as you recognize what you did as wrong, forgiveness is open ended

8defd6 or just like generally goofing around and trolling in serious situations

f421bf but im a grown adult now, im not gonna cull over the things i did cause i already took steps to amend what i could. its natural consequences born out of my great desire of killing myself through killing my soul. now, im a bit torn but ive recovered in better mental state

8defd6 im not sure if i've had any major crashouts surprsingly, most of my worst moments are me just being unable to stop being a dick when explicity told to stop lowk

8defd6 yeah no i havent rly heard the uh, best things about you i would say

f421bf and those effects last, for myself and everyone else

f421bf it wasn't out of any particular hatred of anybody. i just wanted them to hate me to their core cause i really wanted to kill my soul at that time

8defd6 or something along those lines

f421bf depression isnt the worse when you know how to deal with it at the very least.

8defd6 did u rly

f421bf even though no one really cares about me since i told them all to kill themselves when i was breaking down

8defd6 idk im like, sort of depressed, but i've come to embrace it in a way, like i enjoy being le hecking tortured artist o algo

f421bf plus i cant die now, i got so many memories to make as well with everyone i care about

8defd6 aww good 4 u man

f421bf its cause i find it difficult to find meaning in alot of things so there was many times when i genuinely thought suicide would be the best as I was just bored of living but being practical and forward thinking kept me hopeful

8defd6 wdym by >although i was expecting a more nihilistic answer cause lwk im nihilistic myself

f421bf idk you watch mha for the animation icl

f421bf eh if you wanted a reaction there are options out there although i was expecting a more nihilistic answer cause lwk im nihilistic myself

8defd6 kekw, i've never seen MHA is it any good

f421bf taking more supplements cause i lwk keep destroying my body like deku from season 1 where he breaks every bone in his body constantly

8defd6 I don't rly find the aspects of like not having to live anymore to be the appeal of suicide i think it's just mostly the message I could possibly send through it, like if I could fake my death via suicide i lowk might just to like prove something it's very messed up idk why my mindest is like this

8defd6 or atleast have the mindest of one

8defd6 im lowk a conclusion merchant

f421bf idk im a stone brick bro also i lwk just find killing yourself pointless cause youre missing out on possibilities unless killing yourself is better than anything else that can happen to you, like torture

8defd6 I think i talked about this before actually but it got derailed among the slew of other angst i was spewing on that one day

8defd6 this is kind of an out of the blue statement but I feel like I could only kill myself if I got famous first, like if I had some significant works attatched to me that could like be given a new meaning with the context that they were all building to his big moment. Idk is that like, crzy?

8defd6 danggg u like, whatshisface, that one guy from I think TLC that like lives in pure like garbage in filth but because he's lived there so long he's like adapted to all the germs n he's like completely invincible o algo

f421bf yeah thats the funny part out of everybody i talk to im the only guy who just tanks literally everything like sickness or aches or headaches lmfao but i get what you mean

8defd6 oooh i see, yeah no i get sick very very often it's kind of concering but I dont rly go out anyway so it doesnt bother me too much

f421bf sighh

f421bf well i literally just dont get sick

8defd6 what does that mean stray away

f421bf i just stray away from ways of getting sick, i usually dont get sick like that at all

8defd6 dude same i've been coughing my lungs out for the past couple weeks, no idea what i have prolly like a combo of some nophono illness and my asthma gang 'aping me

f421bf just feeling a little sick