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8c5923 Then stop saying sorry,you fucking lashed out over a small thing which you could of ignored,the thing anau said,you wished for me to drown in my families blood and threatened to ruin my relationship with lexi because you blamed me for your wrong doing,I did what I thought was right. But it got turned on me as a bad guy,you called me names and generally upset me because I wanted to stop a damn fucking fight its funny,how when I actually wanted to get you away from an argument it turned to me being the bad guy because either didn't know the fucking outcome was you losing 2 friends.
a4cce3 It worked, I'm still gunna talk on phone though but aye, it will decrease the shit that happens tenfold, but bye, until I have to go on phone
fedf74 I feel like you could actually be an alright person, so long as you actually get the help you desperately need.
57dac4 welp, here goes nothing-
57dac4 well aware Nat
fedf74 Just to stop the lashouts and whatnot, for however long mute lasts for.
57dac4 im much nicer irl, why? because im not confident at all, power (no matter what type of power) can corrupt someone
fedf74 If you'd be willing to do it, that might be a good solution for now.
8c5923 Too late for sorries
57dac4 confidence turns me int oa psychotic maniac
57dac4 if it takes me saying the C word to free you lot from my asshole personality, im willing to do it
57dac4 the most i can say is im genuinely sorry, but even when i say sorry i will just keep doing it, so you know what im going to do
fedf74 In the time until you get an actual therapist, however, there is always online therapists that you can talk to that are just as qualified as a real therapist.
57dac4 another thing is when im panicking and/or scared, i tend to lie alot
fedf74 You have said that, which just seems like another reason to try even harder to get a therapist to talk to.
57dac4 i have probably already said this as well, but sometimes i just have these moments where my emotions just fucking jump out the window and turn me int oan emotionless husk, another cause to why i do bullshit
fedf74 Regardless, an actual hospital would be better in any case, since there's more qualified people there to assign therapists. They're also probably walk-in, you probably just have to wait.
57dac4 also you probably already realized this but the problems i have with saying sorry is that 1. i still feel like a prick because half the time i dont accept other peoples apologies so i feel like a hypocrite 2. i always feel as though its too late and 3. i always feel like even a detailed full on blown apology isnt evne enough
1f8cec if a hospital declines that sorta stuff it might mean that what your talking about might not need any medical help via a therapist but i dont know truly
8c5923 Nono there's doctor places that aren't actually hospitals but have doctors in there for like cold/flu and infections
57dac4 i think so Drone
1f8cec you mean a hospital?
fedf74 Gotcha.
57dac4 i wouldnt know, i have only been England for a couple (maybe few) years
8c5923 They exist but now you need to call them
fedf74 I also don't know if it's different in the US, but are there not also walk-in clinics, where you don't even need to make an appointment?
57dac4 fuck i meant doctor company thingies, fuck i dont know what they called gimme a break
fedf74 Late post.
fedf74 I thought you had to see a doctor to be assigned a therapist first?
57dac4 its probably because im a what they call "immigrant" isnt it?
8c5923 Because you need to see a doctor first and then they refer you to therapy..
8c5923 It is,ebag
57dac4 every time we try contacting some company or whatever, we just get declined
57dac4 to do what Nat?
fedf74 I know it's probably different in the UK, but I thought therapy was pretty easy to access there, too?
57dac4 which leads me to the no self control Ez was talking about
8c5923 I can say that's a lie,because it takes up to 2 weeks to a month
57dac4 i have been trying to get therapy for months now, but they fucking wont give me it, which is fucking annoying
1f8cec Honestly i must say, this whole "I hate humanity" Schtick is edgy as hell and also even if someone isnt nice to you, loosing a loved one, cause what the hell man, also your a major asshole so why should we be nice to you when you've been a pure little rotten asshole with sentience
57dac4 not to mention i have so much built up rage from over the years aswell, which as we all knwo can change someone significantly... in the negative way and because i have been purposely weakening myself, i cant punch things to let out my anger, so have a guess what my brain decided to do? it decided to go "oh lets let it out on others" i try to keep my cool, but as you can see, its starting to get difficult
fedf74 As I've said before, many times, therapy would be great. I know last time we had a conversation like this, you said you were close to seeing a therapist, or something? I don't quite remember.
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