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236914 thats funny bmo i've told rabbit that multiple times, now im getting it flipped on me

bce8e5 it will take a while but they will start forming independence, have they tried speaking to a school counselor, any way of telling someone about their pain?

665bf8 (the one time I can semi-empathize with someone but my dumbass can't form words -Xenoxx)

bce8e5 bloob have you thought about the fact that if these people see you everyday, you don't have to go up for them to realize you've changed? your actions will differ and show them that theres a difference in how you behave long before you tell them directly. you don't have to speak to them now, you've just started on the journey of getting better. sooner or later there will come a time where you can go up to them and let them know you're sorry, but they'll allready know you aren't the same, that you've grown

236914 they're 12 going on 13

236914 they arent old enough to understand the depths of her depravity- all they understand is that their mom's evil. she formed that opinion herself and she tries to avoid her mom as much as they can.

bce8e5 oh you said no cps, how old is your cousin?

bce8e5 have you talked with your cousin about their mother? about what they want, if they want to be away from the house, if they want intervention?

236914 a lot of the people i wronged still go to my school. one of them still talks to me sometimes. she got it the worst so i dont know why. so badly i wanna walk up to her and say "look, i'm sorry for everything. i wanna do better." but i cant. i'm not brave enough.

9df770 at least you know what a true monster really looks like

236914 they do bmo- they just dont get it because of their mother

236914 she's an abusive monster but we didnt wanna get cps involved because then they'd have to go to foster care which we did NOT want. we had them for most of week for "school" but now im confident ill never see her again. not like it would matter. im too much of a coward to say sorry anyway. ill run like i always do.

9df770 But be true to your thoughts, be honest and be grounded. I won't deny any answers you may come up with, but you have experience and wisdom to know what is just and unjust.

bce8e5 does your cousin think they need help?

236914 my cousin needs help. i never told anyone she was cutting herself. i kept it to myself like any other secret. it came out. her mom and my mom (already didnt like each other) had a flaming disagreement and almost fought several times one of which while i was present. their mom is fucking bitch, i hate that hag that parasite that demon

9df770 You may feel it as retribution, but at the end, it will ultimately be up to you to decide how to feel about it. Those decisions have to be made once you have concretely been assured of what to do, but take the time to compile your thoughts.

236914 i try to take it in my stride but i cant anymore im sick of it

236914 i feel i deserve it for all ive done. i deserve my social rejection especially. i was a rotten soul and for some reason people still wanted to like me. i didnt deserve them, i never really will. years have past, i got better as a person but now they want nothing to do with me. i push everyone way. including my cousin. they didnt deserve to be pushed away by me but i did anyway for nothing. i was their rock. the one they counted on. and i pushed them away.

bce8e5 right now you're expressing your feelings which is good, the build up of emotions when it comes to stuff like this can be detrimental, so talking about it really does help. why do you feel like you deserve this? you aren't being punished in anyway. It's terrible that what's happening is happening, but it isn't in any way your fault.

9df770 whilst life goes on, your heart needs time to handle your grief. If you feel as though you are uncertain of what you should be doing as Bloob, you should be true to what you believe is the best thing for yourself and the expectations you have. You are human, and there will be times when things occur in such ways that makes it horrible to go on normally

236914 i cant take it ive never been strong enough for this

236914 im not doing anything. theres nothing i can do except go on my laptop or xbox or talk to my cousins thats all i have

236914 i cant help but feel i deserve this, like if there is a god i'm being punished for my deplorable behaviour. my uncle just got out of prison man and he's gone i never got to meet him face to face i wanted to meet him so bad

bce8e5 three family members and being blamed for sh in the span of a week is rough, i'm sorry you have to go through that. what are you finding yourself doing to deal with the stress and emotion?

236914 the only truth is that life must go on

236914 on top of that my cousin tried to do something bad to themself and essentially blamed it on me because "they dont give me enough attention" refering to us, not her family but us their cousins and aunts and uncles- i say essentially because when i grew distant or upset at them they started cutting themself

9df770 have you come to any truths in what has happened

236914 in the span of a week three family passed away, i've been rotting inside for since winter came and over this last month ive face the worst social despair ive faced since middle school

9df770 does everywhere just lead to one inevitable place of ruin

236914 ive never felt mental anguish like this in my entire life

236914 so much nonsense so much demoralizing nonsense man i'm drowning man

9df770 does it tremendously affect you

236914 a lot

9df770 whats going on

236914 i wanna give up

236914 i just wanna curl up and die

9df770 its kind of a super lazy way for me to draw, its just negative space abuse

8048ed i do not want to do this HELP ME HELP HELP ME HELP ME HELP HEEEELP HEEELP MEEEE HEEEELP HEEEEE

236914 max contrast

9df770 i feel mildly obligated to continue the boxer drawings

0b970e Guess you can say its an. Eyesore. Hahahahhahah