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91d61f you obviously want to talk about how you feekl and while its good to talk to it about your friends were also retartar and not professionals

8cf262 i havent talked him for awhile, ask him if he still remembers ´´ blooper´´ the next time u see him ( anyways sorry for interrupting bloob )

91d61f maybe you should try it again

d3c520 (( he likes men. )) 'seemingly the fuck are you on about-'

ac00c9 its been a long time since ive had therapy

ac00c9 i know him he likes me but pretends he doesnt

d3c520 (( . . . )) '. . .'

91d61f Yes but have you been following up on it because it isn't a one and done thing

8cf262 yo bloob, i didnt know u knew twobit (off topic)

ac00c9 i had therapy does that count

91d61f did you ever get treatment for it

ac00c9 i might already have one on my record i dont remember but i was diagnosed with some emotional disorder

91d61f Chris Chan, asmonggold, yknow

e90c96 the real man denies himself therapy and fixes his mental state by bottling his feelings(this is a joke, please don't ignore your mental health)

d3c520 (( . . . )) '. . . the fuck's a lolcow?'

91d61f There's a teacher in my school called kirken bush, also have you tried getting a diagnosis

ac00c9 i too hold a lot of faith in humanity

ac00c9 but yeah i've been trying to move away from that but sometimes it just feels so pointless i might be bipolar

ac00c9 funny you bring up me being a lolcow

e90c96 I'm in adoration of the beauty of God's creation man, I love the goodness humanity is capable of man, I'm truly astonished by the wonders that have been made man, I'm high on faith in humanity man, I'm a believer man, for real.

91d61f All you can really do is try to slowly change that mindset by reminding yourself and getting confirmation from people you trust, hence why I keep trying to joke with you and REMIND you you're not a lolcow

e90c96 perhaps.

d3c520 (( . . . )) '. . .'

91d61f People important to you (me)

e90c96 hmm, maybe try and change it's importance than? make what the people whom you barely know think of little importance, a minor thing, while you make what people whom are close to you think of you very important, they would, after all, know you better.

ac00c9 i try to say i dont care what people think of me but deep down i know im lying to myself

ac00c9 one of my all time favorite songs "Cry of Achilles" has these lyrics "Crying out for more than i've been shown, knowing none of it is real" and "all that riddles me will never cease to be, still i search the world in vain" and i think that really relate to me and my struggle with this mindset

e90c96 hmm. understand that it can be quite difficult, but once you free yourself from needing validation from what others think of you, you will be all the more happy. what others think of you is of little importance, if those that you personally care for care for you, than you're perfectly fine friend.

ac00c9 like none of it is real and all my effort is meaningless because ill just rot away regardless of if i try to make friends or speak up or make plans with friends because they arent really friends and just dont want to anger me

d3c520 (( It seems today, that all you see, is- )) 'Okay, please shut up before you say something stupid.'

ac00c9 m greatest fear is that everyone despises me but because they fear me or some other reason they dont say it to my face- so while i fight to have some kind of social standing that it's all built on lies and fear

d3c520 (( wat? )) '. . ?'

e90c96 i just did something weird as fuck, I straight up said "thank God I'm alone" after I did it.

689720 blows up because i forgot the link: https://soundcloud.com/gli7ch-abridged/cabinet-man-but-neil-is-taking-a-shower

689720 this feels like the intended way to listen to cabinet man

ac00c9 boredom consumes me

ac00c9 would you look at that i'm wearing a new id

ac00c9 SAAAAAAAAVE USSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

e2886d maybe I should try to make a pepper mix

e2886d an oddity compendium, perhaps

c95776 Bro is an oddly oddity