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92ccd1 Nah

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35556d link: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1USg1J5beVu4UG9c0lCqImbwylztAfxjg?usp=sharing

d0698a my eyeliner held mostly for the whole night- I'm just too damn good.

35556d ok

92ccd1 that is a Yes

35556d is that a yes or no?

92ccd1 aight

35556d y'all want me to realease the character files?

35556d IM IN 8 BITS!!!!!!!

35556d I finished the custom SMB1R character

92ccd1 god damn do i love hearing that bass guitar in a song. like the song is good i have no idea why and then i catch a glimpse of the bass and all of it just. Makes Sense. i really don't know what to say other than bass is the underdog kinda supreme

92ccd1 shapes square brush on krita my beloved

92ccd1 at some point i just started fuckind around with one of the brushes: https://ibb.co/6Rsb4x6R

92ccd1 krita is fun when you have an actual pen to use holy shit

8defd6 im genuinely cooking so hard on this anim oh myyyyyy fauchiiiiiiiiiii

0f3b62 Also that’s pretty cool Aspen

0f3b62 I think i might put a pause on my mewgenics n CGS drawings 2 try n finish nuSUPA asap, if that matters

0f3b62 Yabba dabba doo

d0698a my make up held the entire time. I was also called elegant more then 5 times and people were startled with how serene i was. i was alone for a long time but I helped someone with their troubles so.. i guess my presents was a success.

35556d pam jut dies at a ceritant point

35556d i dont think people were listening

236914 i think im gonna go i dont really know what to do now, sorry for killing the mood or whatever

236914 again im really sorry i said i wouldnt vent here anymore but here i am... i really shouldnt be telling a bunch of strangers this

236914 im sorry im really sorry idk what i was thinking dumping all of this here but once i started i felt i needed to get it all out im sorry

236914 ive never felt this hurt in my entire life and this pain is from my brother? we've always been at each other's throats and some years back i tried to stop it but he always pulls me back in to the everlasting conflict living under my own roof, the one place im supposed to be safe.

35556d https://www.youtube.com/shorts/GAVTn2DHrPE?feature=share

236914 he doesnt care about how i feel. all he knows is rage, thats all he is. a vessel of anger, of which will never extinguish. he told me things today. the usual stuff he tells me when hes mad but this time he went further. i knows i struggled with mental health and knows i was near suicide not too long ago. and he told me that he wished i wouldve killed myself then. he always tells me to die but obviously this was far more personal... i almost snapped but my older brother came in by then and told me to just leave it which i did and now im here. why would say something so cruel to me? my own brother.

236914 im sick of it, im sick of him, im so so sick of him, i feel nothing but anger towards him and yet i still love him and stupidly hold hope that we'll all get along. i hate that i still love him, i dont want to love him anymore, im sick of him. i know hes just gonna hurt me all over again.

236914 i wanna love him, i wanna love him so badly but i cant keep playing this game with him, this game where i suffer and he festers in his rage at the world. then that rage comes out on me and anyone else unlucky enough to in his range.

35556d guh

236914 i fully understand being mad you lost, but his reaction was just insane... ill spare you the details but me and him got into it and theres a hearty little bruise on my arm where he threw a big ass nerf gun at me.

236914 we were all playing games together just having fun, at his request mind you, and it was going great! we were having a good time then he just snapped and ruined it all. it all went downhill from there.

236914 The worst part of it all is knowing this cycle isnt going anywhere. its gonna happen again and im gonna beat myself wondering why i let it happen. if he wasnt my brother i truly honestly would despise him from the bottom of my soul. with every fiber of my being. but i cant, hes my brother, i cant hate my own flesh and blood... i just couldnt bring myself to hate a brother no matter how he hurts me. i still love him, this much i know, but i really just wanna give up on him.

236914 part of me feels like hes manipulating me. like he enjoys hurting me like this, and why? i just want to love you and treat me like this?

236914 i dont even know why i try with him anymore. i have 3 other siblings who'll love me the same way i love them. I could focus and my brothers who love me, not this pointless struggle.

35556d cant wait to have a youtube channel!

236914 and then all of a sudden he turns around and wants to be nice to me. i dont want his niceness anymore so i keep him at an arm's length away but as time goes on i let him back in and he hurts me all over again.

236914 i had never done anything to him. i tried to love him as i did all my siblings but he never would show me anything at all, nothing but cold rage and violence.

236914 i would try so hard man and it seems like its all going well and we'll really be turning a new leaf just for it to come to conflict again. i hate this. i dont want to live in a house like this.