![[583245] I try to make Rozie, and Luna, happy... Yet even then I somehow do something wrong... And my over-protective side from the lack of real friends makes me well... Overly protective of those I really care about that for some it'd appear like I'm being manipulative when in reality I'm just doing what seems right to me... not everyone sees everything the same... Nobody is perfect nor are their actions... and there are those that are always unlucky...](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/4ee018e27477501.png)
583245 I try to make Rozie, and Luna, happy... Yet even then I somehow do something wrong... And my over-protective side from the lack of real friends makes me well... Overly protective of those I really care about that for some it'd appear like I'm being manipulative when in reality I'm just doing what seems right to me... not everyone sees everything the same... Nobody is perfect nor are their actions... and there are those that are always unlucky...
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b918ef Za Warudo
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![[8e9501] This is hilarious coming from Terrie but ok](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/158dd0d7511043f.png)
8e9501 This is hilarious coming from Terrie but ok
![[583245] Every attempt to try and better myself I just get into a even worse place... I can't even find proper help as even some therapist fucking treat me poorly!... And one that I thought was going to be help... Was that damned pedophile... and really... How could I be a pedo if I despite the one that manipulated me and still does to others, and WANT to bring them to proper justice?... Or... Used too at first..... Just... Like any of it matters...](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/c17b31a4403e00c.png)
583245 Every attempt to try and better myself I just get into a even worse place... I can't even find proper help as even some therapist fucking treat me poorly!... And one that I thought was going to be help... Was that damned pedophile... and really... How could I be a pedo if I despite the one that manipulated me and still does to others, and WANT to bring them to proper justice?... Or... Used too at first..... Just... Like any of it matters...
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![[583245] My life was bound to spiral into more and more negativity... I'm a fucking curse to myself, that can latch onto others..... Cause I always end up getting into area's that I never wanted without even trying... Even when it came to just trying to make people happy it was always going to go wrong somehow... To everyone, I'm irredeemable... "Terrie The Trustworthy Truth Teller"... That was always a stupid title and that only really came to be before ID's cause whenever somebody faked somebody else or pretended to be someone else I always knew who exactly they were... The trust wasn't really there as even I can't trust myself!... Haha... Cause even if I did nothing I just end up doing SOMETHING wrong.....](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/cb02a57f795208e.png)
583245 My life was bound to spiral into more and more negativity... I'm a fucking curse to myself, that can latch onto others..... Cause I always end up getting into area's that I never wanted without even trying... Even when it came to just trying to make people happy it was always going to go wrong somehow... To everyone, I'm irredeemable... "Terrie The Trustworthy Truth Teller"... That was always a stupid title and that only really came to be before ID's cause whenever somebody faked somebody else or pretended to be someone else I always knew who exactly they were... The trust wasn't really there as even I can't trust myself!... Haha... Cause even if I did nothing I just end up doing SOMETHING wrong.....
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b709b4 Untitled
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879beb Jimothy
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c129f9 Flour
![[583245] Terrie, the soft, caring and emotional one... What was left of it anyway..... Loli, the defensive yet easily angered one... due to my destructive nature of the past, she was a way to yell without really getting in trouble..... May, was mostly my curiosity but also my more smart thinking side... Entry, was the mostly emotionless one... Allern, he... didn't really have a part he was a wildcard... And well over time as I stopped using each character because of ID's... They all bled into "Terrie"... Maybe not the character but it made the mentally unstable psychopath everyone knows... The 18 year old who was used and manipulated by a pedophile. Abuse by parents and guardians, without many friends, poor living conditions... Just...](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/bccf62faa03ca58.png)
583245 Terrie, the soft, caring and emotional one... What was left of it anyway..... Loli, the defensive yet easily angered one... due to my destructive nature of the past, she was a way to yell without really getting in trouble..... May, was mostly my curiosity but also my more smart thinking side... Entry, was the mostly emotionless one... Allern, he... didn't really have a part he was a wildcard... And well over time as I stopped using each character because of ID's... They all bled into "Terrie"... Maybe not the character but it made the mentally unstable psychopath everyone knows... The 18 year old who was used and manipulated by a pedophile. Abuse by parents and guardians, without many friends, poor living conditions... Just...
![[38239e] hit sans](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/4dcd8f57eec9f38.png)
38239e hit sans
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38239e Sans Sprite
![[583245] The mental damages. The abuse. The hate. The carelessness of adults. It seriously hurt my understanding of people. That even in here... PAM, I thought I could make new friends... And at first that was the case cause I was more calm and putting up a fake personality for people. And mix that with my multiple-personality disorder and acting like other people and there's the creation of so many different kinds of characters..... Each originally having some separate part of my own personality...](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/debfdb2de76c7b9.png)
583245 The mental damages. The abuse. The hate. The carelessness of adults. It seriously hurt my understanding of people. That even in here... PAM, I thought I could make new friends... And at first that was the case cause I was more calm and putting up a fake personality for people. And mix that with my multiple-personality disorder and acting like other people and there's the creation of so many different kinds of characters..... Each originally having some separate part of my own personality...
![[d53a42] Undertale](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/a342c5e3a8bac12.png)
d53a42 Undertale
![[a2c390] Hemburger](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/0cecd3a96eaa10b.png)
a2c390 Hemburger
![[583245] Then comes high school... By this point the bullying was no more but even then some students got away with starting fights and even making weapons without much discipline or even getting expelled. Illegal drugs... The things I heard during then of people raping others, getting into illegal stuff... It told me schools never care about the students. Never have, never will. And so by that point... Near the very end of school for me... I yelled for three entire periods of school..... At the teacher I had, even the principle, I legit had enough of the shit they did to me. Even in the past. Had I not held back during the time of Covid. I'd 100% have punched them and KEPT hitting them. Over. And over. Not a single bit of emotion but RAGE. All of that still weighs me down.](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/adc5491ad9fc47c.png)
583245 Then comes high school... By this point the bullying was no more but even then some students got away with starting fights and even making weapons without much discipline or even getting expelled. Illegal drugs... The things I heard during then of people raping others, getting into illegal stuff... It told me schools never care about the students. Never have, never will. And so by that point... Near the very end of school for me... I yelled for three entire periods of school..... At the teacher I had, even the principle, I legit had enough of the shit they did to me. Even in the past. Had I not held back during the time of Covid. I'd 100% have punched them and KEPT hitting them. Over. And over. Not a single bit of emotion but RAGE. All of that still weighs me down.
![[1dae94] Budweiser](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/9365c7e27fd6813.png)
1dae94 Budweiser
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1dae94 Budweiser
![[583245] It made me bitter... Along with the abuse from my aunts and cousins that'd hit me and whatnot when I even misbehaved even a tiny bit... I lost my emotions to those around me... And it started to hurt my friendships as well... I started... Getting more violent ripping my schoolwork yelling at the teachers. I showed I done had enough with being forced around.](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/42c37a33528ad6b.png)
583245 It made me bitter... Along with the abuse from my aunts and cousins that'd hit me and whatnot when I even misbehaved even a tiny bit... I lost my emotions to those around me... And it started to hurt my friendships as well... I started... Getting more violent ripping my schoolwork yelling at the teachers. I showed I done had enough with being forced around.
![[d84877] Knight](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/2ce87a83b178a18.png)
d84877 Knight
![[583245] Even in Middle School... I got expelled for three days for a drawing on my own desk that I never made... Even leaving a "pencil" behind despite me only using pens by then... It didn't matter... "Only I sat there, it HAD to be me." At that point... I started to get angry. I was starting to get fed up with all the bullshit. And me slowly losing my small group of five friends. The amount of trouble I got in despite never really doing anything to try and get into it.....](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/53402a533f6e1bd.png)
583245 Even in Middle School... I got expelled for three days for a drawing on my own desk that I never made... Even leaving a "pencil" behind despite me only using pens by then... It didn't matter... "Only I sat there, it HAD to be me." At that point... I started to get angry. I was starting to get fed up with all the bullshit. And me slowly losing my small group of five friends. The amount of trouble I got in despite never really doing anything to try and get into it.....
![[583245] Being bullied day in and out in Elementary, with nobody willing to help me and me being too shy to really speak out I couldn't do much..... I just kinda ran all the time... In the halls always looking down at the floor... Barely learning anything cause I wasn't into learning due to how nobody cared... And well... That still lingers...](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/8873a76399e7330.png)
583245 Being bullied day in and out in Elementary, with nobody willing to help me and me being too shy to really speak out I couldn't do much..... I just kinda ran all the time... In the halls always looking down at the floor... Barely learning anything cause I wasn't into learning due to how nobody cared... And well... That still lingers...
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bd33ee Youtube banner
![[583245] A lot of people hate me for my actions. And while a lot I regret there is no way of ever undoing the past. It's there for the rest of time. And me? A person who suffers from so many disorders and mental problems to most those are excuses but everything has always been a "excuse" even when it was true. Teachers, Parents, Aunts, they all said that I was making up excuses to get out of trouble despite telling the actual truth.](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/678a9722e71c49c.png)
583245 A lot of people hate me for my actions. And while a lot I regret there is no way of ever undoing the past. It's there for the rest of time. And me? A person who suffers from so many disorders and mental problems to most those are excuses but everything has always been a "excuse" even when it was true. Teachers, Parents, Aunts, they all said that I was making up excuses to get out of trouble despite telling the actual truth.
![[bd33ee] Youtube banner](http://pixelartmaker-data-78746291193.nyc3.digitaloceanspaces.com/image/52957b92e9bec05.png)
bd33ee Youtube banner
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3b887c Angry Spencelton
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50b2e3 borgvogel
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