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9dffd4 oksorry

0e6997 [Ekusukariba] [Alright going fs this time]

0e6997 [Souczyr] [far from it, also call me eku, everyone knows me by that since i use different characters a lot]

9dffd4 okbye

9dffd4 Ok so century is my cousin basically

0e6997 [Century] [crazy, either way im heading off, tomorrow i got a 9 hour shift, gnight peeps]

9dffd4 Yeah I can like definitely pin point when this new mindset kind of hit me it’s when i got like bed ridden sick for a month. Genuinely just sat there with no light listening 2 like Sarah or something while making the initial SUPA pieces, definitely cooked me mentally but man i got wayyy better at drawing kekw

0e6997 [Century] [1:28am rn]

d80f90 I live in the other washington trust

0e6997 [Century] [im pacific standard, i live in washington]

9dffd4 Do u guys all live in the same house everyones 3 hours ahead of me what the geeeeek

d80f90 Well yeah i am going soon its 4:30 am on a school night im lowkey cooked

9dffd4 Mb lyric posting cuz i thought u had 2 go or something kekw

0e6997 [Century] [dealing with this another time ig]

9dffd4 And jane! You’re early, your life’s work is dirtied, by the fools! That adore you, biding your time biding your time to strike… surely, the poison makes a portrait of your face! In the mirror, smiling with fright

d80f90 Depression can be drastically different in different people, it can be incredibly hard to notice sometimes because of just how different it is. And i used to think the same, thinking that therapy isn’t really worth the time or that it’s useless, but once you find the right professional it really does help even if you don’t have issues of major concern, therapy is like thinking to yourself but way more intricate and conclusive. It also feels soooo good to be heard man like I can’t stress that enough it’s such a relief if you struggle with expression/acceptance

29aeca I might be a little depressed but, depression makes u want 2 kill yourself and i don’t rly want 2 do that despite how much i larp it kekw

29aeca Yeah that’s prolly it, i do need to do something significant tho, and im not sure how that’s going to happen or how moral it’s going to be but. You know i’ve never actually gone to a therapist, i don’t know why prolly because it’d be kind of awkward to ask my parents. If they saw the stuff i posted they’d send me maybe, but, idk i don’t really want to take the time 2 do that, i kind of find solace in my mindset.

139555 also if you're serious theres no way you just back-to-back said "i dont think i have any mental disorders but i really do want to kill someone"

139555 i used to fantasize about doing something news worthy just because it would be news worthy, it faded away, i dunno, i realize looking back that i had a warped and twisted mindset back then, but i couldnt see it in the moment

a9b03b And it’s not really the fame from the act itself that i care for, showing up on the news isn’t really that interesting. I explained this early but, i want to like create some kind of artificial value to my works that only that act would create if that makes sense. I genuinely wanna be a conclusion merchant oh my gosh

a9b03b I really do want to kill someone, and i don’t know what kind of political leaning that comes from but, i really do, i don’t know why at all or who or when but it’s something that kind of scratches the back of my mind. I wouldn’t want to deal with the consequences though, so i just larp being le cycle path through my art and other babble.

139555 neurdivergence is a spectrum and everyone falls somewhere on it

a9b03b I don’t think i have any mental disorders, i could say autism but everybaldi that self diagnoses autism just does it to excuse their weird behavior so, i think im neurotypical or however the science is fauchied

139555 i think you have a lot of conflicting emotions because of the fact that you DO have a conflicting enviornment, growing up left wing and getting into soyjak party is going to push things off kilter. it's also probably another reason why you're more aware when it comes to moral issues and emotional intelligence overall. I've noticed that people who are less reluctant to look into / try to understand both sides of a coin, or are forced to do that even, tend to be more open minded / intelligent.

a9b03b Yeah no, i have like some catholic friends but they’re not really like super edgy more just traditional right wing snca, i don’t know why im like this im not rly a victim of my environment

a9b03b Da jooz made my son a slinky mage

139555 that's extremely unnexpected actually, i need more reality checks, i keep thinking i know things 100%

a9b03b My family is very left leaning so yeah prolly why

139555 unfortunately my parents are very racist but im surprisingly convincing them to think about it differently, they're still directing their hatred towards the jews after i explained how the government causes poor places to become poorer, particularily black areas, but like its a step up i suppose

139555 i think he lives in a third world country where the literacy rates are lower than america

139555 also, if your family isn't racist, you're more likely to be against racism overall, especially if you where taught why exactly its stupid at a young age. or its just the overwhelming societal pressure of racism being deeply frowned upon that made a mental blockade for you, or, maybe you just developed a sense of reasoning where you said "this is too far for me, i literally know its wrong" and just dislike it for that reason

a9b03b Not to make this a twobit convo but i genuinely can’t believe he’s a year older than me despite still having like, leafyishere humor KEKKKKK

139555 i like the description of tortured artists though

139555 the slinkymage worldbuilding was cool i still have all the stuff from that universe in my head

a9b03b I thought u had cool ideas, like u were a creative type, le tortured artist o algx, you can actually find an early example if you look for the whole slinky mage thing we had a lot of fun building, that was rly cool kekw. I might honestly be kind of a dick, if i knew how to ‘ox people like maybe 3 years earlier i prolly would’ve. The apathy definitely comes in the humor more than my actual beliefs tho, i like the humor of the soyjak party rather than their actual beliefs, it’s why i only use the slang from them that dont contain racial slurs kekw. Actually that is interesting, i am like definitely an edgelord in some way but i dont rly touch race stuff, like, at all, idk what the psychology behind that is.

139555 idk what talent you saw i was a lolcow for you basically

139555 no he larps being morally numb for attention because when he was a kid he found it as an easy way to get a lot of attention without punishment, he doesn't actually think he's a nazi, or does he like gore, or does he hate gays or trans people just as much as he says. He's gotten angry multiple times at people for bringing up the nazi stuff, saying he was stupid back then. But then he'll switch up and put on a swastika whenever he thinks it might rile someone up. He's a kid. I believe you're pretty morally apathetic though, most definitely because of the people you've spent alot of time with, arty folk and whatnot. You're definitely more mature and intelligent than twobit, you can look at yourself and see whats potentially wrong, and ask why you might be a certian way. I would say twobit is more morally incorrect simply because he refuses to be introspective and because he's plain dumb so he's biologically bound to do things more wrong.

e533f9 Yeah i’d imagine ur looked up 2, i think in my early days there was some kind of respect there in between the vitrol, like i did think u were talented.

e533f9 Actually here i have a little question 4 u because i’ve been thinking about this, am i kind of like twobit in a sense? Like morally, well not morally i dont send gore but, idk i think a lot of my values align with his despite like, really not messing with him at allllll

139555 its a common pattern on pam, i larped jz when i first joined because i thought he was cool, pepper larped me for a bit, actually quiet a bit of people did, theres some other examples i will not bring up because they will make me angry, and bloob larps you because he thinks youre cool